This hasn't been the easiest of weeks, following a pretty exhausting weekend. It left me feeling blah and emotional. As I was folding clothes the other morning, this verse just started playing over and over in my head. It has stayed there all week.
One of my favorite professors in college used to say "sleep is spiritual!" And I have always loved that. That statement has given me permission to take some naps during these difficult early years with lots of littles running around. But this week, I haven't needed a nap. I've needed rest. I'm so thankful that He so gently reminds me that the only place I'll ever find rest is in Him.
As I've consciously reset my focus this week, my spirit has lifted and the things that were weighing me down, seem much smaller in light of who God is.
For some reason, early this week, it just hit me all over again that Eli has autism. He isn't going to outgrow it. And while, yes, he will make progress and grow and learn, autism is here to stay. It was a hard pill to swallow again. I guess maybe it will feel like that at various times In the coming years, and that's okay. Yet again, God has reminded me that He created Eli with a purpose. Autism didn't surprise Him. He knew. And He knows what lies ahead. There's a line from a song that's also been playing over and over in my head this week, "I will trust in you. You've never failed before..." (Sorry, I don't know the name of the song or the artist. I never know those sorts of things about any song I like. That's why I like Shazam. Ha!)
So I trust when I can't see exactly how He is going to work all of this out for good, for His glory. But he promised that he will.
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