Perspective

I've been thinking a lot lately about perspective and how different perspectives can change your outlook on different situations. My perspective on much of life has changed dramatically since having Eva. For example, I heard someone (without kids) say recently how tired they were. I chuckled to myself thinking, "Girl, you don't know the meaning of tired until you've gone 10 solid months without a full night's sleep." Obviously, I didn't say this to this person, because that just would have been rude. Just an example of perspective. I definitely had to adjust my perspective through the first 9-10 months of Eva's life in order to function. Every night I had to tell myself that I would rather wake up 3x night and have her than to not have her and be sleeping all night. My perspective on other things has changed as well. My perspective has changed on: fun, old, discipline, clean, and many other things.

Being a parent has terrified me more than anything else in my life. I'm a "mama bear" if there ever was one. I'm terrified of Eva making poor choices that will hurt her. I'm terrified of something bad happening to her. I know that I worry too much, and really none of this keeps me up at night. Just a new set of issues on my plate as a mom. No one ever told me that I'd have a new perspective on fear. I'm no longer worried about something happening to me, but of something happening to her. It's just weird how with the conception and birth of one little life, everything changes.

For those of you who don't have kids, yet, consider yourselves warned. Even though being a parent will make you worry like never before, you will love that little thing more than you could ever imagine. I'd always heard it, but never comprehended.